paradox bubble

i am a lullaby mom and dad
i will always fit into y'alls timings
i haven't a will nor a plan
i'll take a time out and meditate.....
dive deep into my array of thoughts
find all the rebellious narcissism shifting forms
and before they can project themselves and clash this calm.......
i will be content living not living
for what's there to it right?
i can't even guess minute to minute
been 32 years of life behind me
32 trillion life time to comprehend
and i can't even say a fraction was mine
i have the best intentions but also i have the urge to contradict myself every passing moment
a paradox bubble very aptly
and i'm sure that doesn't make me unreliable
i am me and i am here and i am forging ahead
away with the norms
live just in my mind
i am just a transient
my actions don't relate to me
i'm complicated like that