paradox bubble

i am a lullaby mom and dad
i will always fit into y'alls timings
i haven't a will nor a plan
i'll take a time out and meditate.....
dive deep into my array of thoughts
find all the rebellious narcissism shifting forms
and before they can project themselves and clash this calm.......
i will be content living not living
for what's there to it right?
i can't even guess minute to minute
been 32 years of life behind me
32 trillion life time to comprehend
and i can't even say a fraction was mine
i have the best intentions but also i have the urge to contradict myself every passing moment
a paradox bubble very aptly
and i'm sure that doesn't make me unreliable
i am me and i am here and i am forging ahead
away with the norms
live just in my mind
i am just a transient
my actions don't relate to me
i'm complicated like that

struggles with conformity

you should read my mind
my will should be your flag
you're minimal and lacking in your love
my love is endowed
it's got such potential
let's not flex for supremacy
fall in line for me,you.....
you can take all the routes
but when you arrive you'd have realised it was such a waste
cause we're meant to be
there's no waning
only hierarchical elevation and sound-bites from my pestering mind
but my drill is not devoid of devotion
i've tasked myself for this love
so i'll be here till the last flicker