and for the 'likes' too

i'm cutting you out of my friends list
we haven't said too much for too long
i haven't sat here expecting mails or comments from you
no,, it's just how you come across with your updates
i can't stand them
in some ways i think the feeling is mutual
or atleast after you've gotten this mail from me
i feel today,, that i need to arrest this slide
i just hate you that much that i need to entail a mail letting you know that it's come to this
if this mail leaves you feeling sour
please feel free to express it back
i'm leaving that option open for you
End.

the period after the withdrawals are manic too

i mimic mimic mimic
and in turn i start to look like an ape
so distressed and fucking agitated
my shoulder's been troubling me,, been eons
what a sludgy stretch my life has gotten to be
it's better when i'm off my fucking mind
it's better when i slave for the rail-track grinds
tell me what i gotta do?
i'm off my rocks
i just can't please anyone
and fuck pleasing myself too
not even porn will do
i need to bust out of this radio frequency
it's all i be at man!!!!
categorize my existence
deal with it in chapters
make a new playlist
i feel so manic right now

Skids

I'm sliding
You see my face.....
You'd say oh that feller is cherry
Only I feel
And I need to hide
It's a compromise I've worked out for myself
If you could feel how cold my guts have gotten?
See,,,I don't even want friends
I don't even crave for happiness
I feel occasional
I feel unique
I don't need to be understood
And my gravestone can be unapologetic;;;; I don't care
I understand irony
I spew contradiction
I have impromptu wit 'neath my nails
I'm tired of this
And -recreation- can go burn all my bridges
...............Hancock

a slight glitch 3 in the morning

this is for you
for being petite
for being artistic
for repelling me
for drawing me in and then shutting me out
for making me reckless
for all my silly facebook status updates
you make me squirm and more
i despise the day i chanced on you
that day is long gone but the torment builds
my train is derailed but fuck the chaos
there ain't any merit now anyways
it's like those epic pink floyd songs with the chorus deflated
now is gone
and here is stale
i'm a year older
your words are crisp
they're strewn in rhythms of silver and gold and diamond dusts!!!!
afterall i'm just a lunatic
i'd do well in life just stalking you
a whiff of you
and i'd inhale it in super slow-motion
disperse paranoia
squander genuine maggot love

breakfast for orange juice

in 1980 the sun wasn't brave enough in kohima
i don't remember ever hiding inside my room
hysteric fits of laughter and bursts of run as if being uncoiled
i entertained everyone
even my future enemies
and this now
.....the story of a monk
who was now into the 7th year of his meditation
...decides to take a tail-spin
let the world bleed
let the children die
rape the mothers and daughters
hang the fathers and brothers by their genitals
cometh the hour
unleash the mammoth monster
ticket to ride
go play cards with gaddafi
.....i hear he's convalescing there
........his arse wounds are hurting
man!!! he got gun fucked
haha it's gonna be easy to beat him with all his regal pains
can i be a champion now?

my placard

i am susceptible to honesty
to paint a colour for myself
to sketch a mockery of myself
to caricature myself as if jubilantly
drips of poignant cache that i amass for myself
maybe i negate my fortune so
i'm just devilishly sincere to myself
maybe i'm subliminally trying to elicit good karma
i'm very awake and aware
i'm not sleepwalking through this all
i do the best with my emotions
make a fodder out of them
i feel
i write
i hurt
i mend
if only i can imbibe to draw neater circles when i'm nearing an end
i''d be happy with the level

the walkmen

little bastards everywhere
little kittens too
arms slung around each other
amorous yea!!! ...but disastrous
cause love is fleeting and passion's damp
the vigilance committee has harped on this all along
new pairs think they're savvy
.....more in tune
they spite us.....leave us cussed up
think they got it all sussed up
how wrong can they breathe??
i mean oxygen should sustain us
they're just diving
oh!! let the thud end it all
......i pray.

my parallel universe

i did some drugs
and the 90's started going my way
i know this is imagination
there's violence in it even
but it's ok,,don't fret
cause you're in it too
it's not plausible
is it possible??
sure is when you ride the rainbow rollercoaster
and you and me were gleefully painted across the horizon
and this is how you and me ditch this lonely town
and at the end of this you and me would have used up all our endorphins
sure as hell we'd be devoid of cheer
but who gives a fuck
it's a drab world
and wishing for a suicide is resilience;;ritual even

transfer

i drink water everyday,,sustains my fluidity
i breathe oxygen,,it enables my rhythm
i eat food,,weighs in on my existence
i stare at my view,,helps conjure up my aesthetics
i walk i talk;;chalks up my paranoia and disperses 'em=it permeates like a bad omen
it's really a helter skelter manic obsession;;my life
riding on a bike
riding on a mission
riding with a vision
the road is all mine
i carve a thin line
it's one big one
i spill and spew packets of timid social warmth
hit my refresh button and get drenched in a superficial bliss
in 'nother 2 secs my narcosis hits a wall
i check out in a bang akin to cosmic revelry

on a bent sunday

in an emergency situation listening to iggy & the stooges won't help
let's face it-
gathering yer wits about isn't as idle a task as being seamlessly tantric
head tilted sideways supping delicious orange juice
i'm happily dazed at the awesome apps i have on my iphone
lemme just fucking wallow in this glee unadulterated
gimme time to git my props up pa
when one day i have my magic finger on my trigger
and sight you dirty lapse on my scopes
take it for granted i'll end you
i sound cool when i try to be raw
fist clenched brows furrowed for the squinted eye visual?
pat me on my back....
and you'd ask why? right......
well i can wryly confirm
attest that yea maybe
quite nearly man
the elixir to life?
i have it within me
it's my version
you'd say it's a corrupted one i know
but what's mine is mine

so while i'm high....

nothing hurts
i feel like rubber
i'm an absorbent
i feel classic
i feel placid
see drugs aren't bad!!
i wanna be on painkillers my whole life
as a young boy they won't get it
as a 27 yer old we know what i'm on about right?
sedated and peaceful and serene as can be
and why would i front when i'm sat on this cloud?
people man!!!!! them all people don't understand this gifted frame of mind
it's swell what else can i say
rest all squares
rest all stationary
and their lack of it!!!!
that ain't better
.........no chance

just maybe

my heart is out tonight
i've lent it to a near and dear
i can't not be bothered,,the state of things
oh mother merciful you have me tonight
i want her unscathed
and this i plead with my palms grasped and postured as if steel
i'm just coming off a season
and i'm fragile and bent to regress
someone like me will never tire of starting again and again
the race is a mockery
it's just another way to grasp what i lack
it's all i want tonight
i want healing to seep into her
get her her prowess back
and i'll be off on my way yet more
but surely more enlightened that maybe

place your commas

with my cat there's no guilt
i can have feelings when i please
feed her fish twice a day and i'm blissfully karmically equated
she doesn't require my vapour
my dog she questions my love
she wiggles her tail
she wants a pat
she's just too demanding
so i always try to give her a miss
and blindly sin to favour cassette
see i've worked out a lazy guilt free life
i don't ever want to feel burdened
i'm so caught up freeing up alone time
when the dogs rule the world......
i'm ready to face my lax love for them
i'll die a martyr for being un-engaging
for being so arrogantly overlooking
i'll check out staring at dog-hangman

these wrists

uncle has got a family agenda
he's sat downstairs spilling his thought spawn
my mum listens to him diligently
i've set an ear to their frequency
while i lay back and lose it all to a 1969 pink floyd track
i shan't smoke this afternoon
i believe in destiny everytime i pause
when i take a time out....
i bin all my convictions
i make room for the conventional
people who are heavily imprinted?
there's no point trying to endear yourself
i mean it's nothingness we come from
and i believe we need to maintain some sort of traces
i am no personality
i am shaded head to toe
i take pride in my contradictions
and i salute just about anyone

guerilla fire for a rebel proof soul

i got stupid
i lost you to a brave line
i lost you to a rapture
in my euphoria.......
voices from every direction
they inhibit my narcissism
and as i can't be stood and frowning down?
even my trails are vague
i suppose i can't be haunting
i'm diminishing every breath
lost and confused unrequited
dream dreams so distant
utopian reality i inhabit
lacklustre me
i'd like to cease
V

agenda

i kissed her
and she tasted full of adrenaline
she tasted like a young buzz
and she tells me oh so stylishly
"i ain't horny"
so i'm naive
got no game
just let her own me
arbitrarily construct me
have i got wisdom tonight!
maybe i've got sissy convictions
but i'm getting laid tonight
and that's my call

lack of cohesion

PART-1
slow luna
i wish i agreed what's being said
a loner
a stoner
a poet
an atheist
all these words make a mockery of me
i've grown up and i'm such a rascal
so balanced and nimble on the fence
smirk all day
so optimistic,,yea i'm a faltering personality
so i talked to my cat today
fed her fish
she ate it with so much noise
that's the life for her
but i?
i want better
i want a tv life
PART-2
moving in a car
breathing in ac
keeping my soul in slow motion
thinking about the past
i had everything
living on a regret diet
just passed a brick kiln
oh how cities come up
and how the mighty fall
buzz about
whisky squandered
make up lies
make a new friend
eat some soup
sit on a fence
the velvet underground

drama of it all

silence for?
my cat
eager for?
your love
static for?
divinity
focus for?
what ever the showers bring or anything that i can pluck'r out the wind
all of my teachers
all of the books
all of the experience
each and every catharsis
it's like i arrived from the start.
my tv's broke but i'm not fixing it
listen to music all day
i'm done trying to level the chasms
just don't ask me if i am content

ATTENTION!!!!!!!!

when i retrograded i felt sad............
in school ma'am would always grade me with her eyes
and now i do the same with all in my view
i'm not accepting anymore
i'm just cynical all the time
even with my food or the good on my arm!
this shape that shape all forms
lest i betray my contradictory self
i'm not budging from this frame of mind
feel so fiery and all-consuming
but then again i'm so meek when i'm star gazing
i can lose myself in a flicker
that's why i won't drag those fumes anymore
i'm way too young to have my nostrils cotton-balled
and i'm also way past the great gig in the sky to have my arms axed
so tenderly,, i'm falling back in line yet again

no time limit

my hours tick by so slow
don't matter i listen to a fast song new rose
i want my demons to flee away right now
i play a bad paced game
and i lose my affinity all the time
i can't even express love
i've got the most rotten personality
i wanna feel fresh again
and i'll never wander away given it
when i was a kid
when i flew kites
i sent up letters
the kites they never replied
now i know why

my nostalgia intertwined with amy's death

woke up nostalgically inclined
kind of reminiscing about the previous life!
cause it all seemed a lifetime away
browsed over old mails unintentionally,,stumbled onto them
what love proses i spilled on you
amy winehouse is dead and 27
and we the educated pay no heed to myths
i just spread my arms and make a face
till the sun comes down i've got a fight to carry
on these slender shoulders i'm laden
i'm so tasked i can't afford a grimace even
just a regular herd making my turns and hoping for a miracle
what drives me nuts is that
......even with all these studies we cannot fathom life itself
emotions rule
melancholy overpowers
sullenness attracts
and being waif is like a check-out ticket for the great gig in the sky
i wish i was there there in the moment
in all it's cosmic supernova
amy with smack throbbing in her veins
and making a mockery of her rehab ditty
i bet there'd be applause to the laughter and bubbly clinks

abyss

this loneliness has crept up in me
it's stealth has blanketed me
it's like i've been drawn to this the whole time
my head bowed alert to whispers
my lush my effervescence my triumph,,alas!
just yesterday i was swanning smacked to my brim with my chums
incoherently i was sinking yet again
john is evil
bobby is insidious
and i am crass when i'm sauced
a dim wit on powder
car crash pilot
a fool who thinks he's masterminding an utopia
i try to breeze by socials plugging euphemisms
and sat here i'm so unimpressed
give me my 90's i'll set it right
a hindsight, a panacea, i lack

scripts

some people build you up
and they just gutter you in the same vein
so i sit and question the universe
drink water and clear the toxins running a riot in my temple
sometimes when i'm about to woo a girl.....
my failed attempts weigh a ton
and when i mull over
they're there again illuminated incandescently
some people are too friendly
im left confused what's the intent
i concede i'm friendly too
but i turn a mean knife that's planted on yer back
amidst this frenzied hilarity
i don't know if i wanna stay healthy
you say life is meaningful
alright,,let's agree there are meaningful bursts here and there

hurtling through

i don't like how time makes me brood
time fucks me up with her numbers
i don't got time,,she owns me
it's tick tick and lick lick;;been getting licked subliminally since my inception
time,,she's a mean soundtrack
i think she's invisible
she twirls and swirls and envelopes all us misery stamped souls
times are a changing and time she's bewitching
oh how infinite is this paranoia
i'm more jaded everyday
and my memory just serves to confirm my decrepitude

misanthropist

race away race away
that's what i thought
i used to look up
only to waste and glare my intentions
so you can all assume where i purchased my inclinations (the BLUE sky)
at puberty i was sprouting
it's a travesty the person that i am
i realize i've been stranded
somebody apt needs to retrograde and bring me back some current sanity
i'm a pauper living in my pipe dream
i'm so happy and content if you care to believe
unaffected and losing it to my orbit

drinks

this is all the money i have
drop it on the table
know what we're dealing with yea?
chug chug chug
another night in the bin
another day on your hit list
i live for the A:M moments when everyone's losing it
smatter it
can't hold back any thoughts
caper about till the sun rays invade the receding moon
oh moon our loveliest sentinel
we earnestly bid you adieu
and in the invoked car crash weather
climb back to our wheels
disperse like paranoid parasites to the frenzied family
home is a good place to restore ourselves
that's all!!!!!

wander

do you wanna use this sun with me?
or you just wanna waste another sun?
at night the stars bring us light
but it's not for me
cause they're playing for themselves
maybe i'll just blink and i'll be in another day
my life's desperate
my life's forlorn
i'm just hanging out for a miracle
i wish it were insanely blissful
like when you slip some boil and you view in melancholy techni-colour
right?

rain pattered window view

in the rain
to cup a lil hope
when i'm feeling forlorn
when i'm feeling spent
cause i've tired every melody
pale blue eyes is lost on me
the ravines in my psyche have gorged her up
i took it to my brother
but we only got drunk
and i fell out of the revolution
i woke up uncared and blundered
the whole afternoon i felt brushed aside
this is what a day does to you when you miss someone
now i'm percolating hostility
and i can do nothing about it
i'm lost in this maze of riot
i wanna soothe
bring me a drizzle
it's universe and me tonight

totally outwitted

don't steady yourself
don't brace yourself
don't say oh wait a minute
don't ponder yonder
embrace your defect
life's a sunday morning
sip some coffee
flip through the papers
a hearty breakfast
sit on a chair and just
stare and disperse into the oblivion
i have money so my life is made
feelings are secondary
emotions are a rite of passage
the sooner you drain 'em the quicker you start living life
cause in the end we're just parasites feeding off each other
it's a gamble to succeed
you know a gamble where solitude will be questioned
but man!!!!!!
solitary life is aesthetically pleasing
we can't splice our souls can we?
cause we're all so fucking fascists if we cared to understand

bohemia quartz

the car turned around and whisked off
i swear i saw a ghost
nobody drives a pink car in this town
and i reckon i heard finale blasting from the stereo
so someone's out to get me
and someone not from our realm of everyday habits
i've got my fingers crossed
i'm sat and waited with bated breath
so long as i'm carried on this cloud
i can't scurry back to regulation
it's these fantasies i live in
i wanna face all my fears

oldest pretender

for individuality
for my own personality
look 'em in the eye with this character
doesn't matter my headphones
my eyes will decant my thoughts into your palm bowls
stomp all over the revolution
if i can be kind
i can be harsh
that's what it is all about right?
individuality means to live in your own plain
it's one solitary testosterone trip
fuck the nuances
no acrobatic lyrical gibberish
time to get bitchin'
where's charlie sheen when you need him to iron your convictions
oh yea he's on the news

redundantly

believe me i don't wanna be hanging out in my casuals
laughing at every joke
i'd rather be choking on food than this scene here
i'm tired too
yea right even with all this regality
i have better dreams
if only you could see the chasm in my eyes
you'd know how redundant our topic's gotten
i need to go to tawang
gipson sezs he knows the place
i think i'll add some soul there
i think i'll flourish
as it is i'm walking alone to the beat in my headphones
might as well get some social detox
and come back fresh for a relapse
yea all you social advocates get in line
my friggin ears are red hot
by the way i'm following charlie sheen on twitter
my newest hero
doesn't apologise shit
if i had money?
i'd be as depraved and hedonistic to the T
well sucks being poor

<++>

floating in a daydream
bursts of cola bubbles
rage with whisky wrath
what a reel
......with laughter in the fading background
what scenic picturesque surroundings we drove into?
hey let's listen to your tape for sometime
i've got a hobby
nearly a habit
it's a hobby
not a habit
hand in hand
walk into friends
now they're all talking
and i'm gonna fall down
time to go into denial
now where are you
seems like you just vanished in thin air
i'm going mental

i wanna sleep please

if i stare intently at the wall for sometime
i can make faces appear
and i can have a small chat and while away some drab
sip a black coffee and decant my refrains to the open mouthed faces
this is how i empty myself
this is how i remain hollow after all this time
so fucking lost in my own lil trip
my room my empire my prison
you can make anything seem pretty in a catchy 2 min song
i think i'll murder you and pen you a ditty
well who are you?
just voices
another villain
another hero
yea a caper inside my persona
i'm losing my personality
my ears are fucking red
my eyes are fucking read
my knees feel disjointed
and i've been sober 23 days

wait it away

sitting out with the stars
i'd say things to you
we'd share cigarettes
the universe regaled us even in our sullenness
i wish we had 2 lives each
and i wish we could lend our lives too
so did ya get married?
do you play sports anymore?
so much for my alternative way of thinking
i'm always getting well
since the last relapse?
i'm feeling good now
i'm getting back my confidence too
but i need a lot of new clothes
one thing i don't know
is i always go back to 90's music
i guess i'm dated and sorted
i think my soul formed it's blueprint then
it's been eons since i hung out late
fueled on alcohol and smacked to my brim
well

fuck cricket

i luv yer pikcher
i dig it
i wanna sniff it
indulge me this folly please?
20 days since i smoked
appetite is ill
what can i do
yea i drink so much water
break some sweat
that's what i do
i can't think too much
i don't allow myself
contrary to beliefs
that's how i'm living
but it's all golden
i'm a puritan
and for real i've got jesus sitting on my shoulder
whispers to me dizzy cosmical doctrines
i think he really digs my point of view
y'know i talk to myself now and then
ai meg ryan's gotten old and wrinkly right?
man wasn't she cute
and what about demi moore in indecent proposal?
i guess ashton sees her in atleast one of his supposed daughters
when you get a lil older.......
they say we get cynical
our dreams get more mythical
and we lose our aversion to perversion
fuck all that jive
i'm just topping up my sobriety
one fine day i'll walk into that bar
and ask for the loudest drink

charlie

spin spin spin
go round for me
bleed from your nose
let your eyes hit the roof of your head
are you dizzy enough?
we need to stick with the script here
we can't tote a bible
we can't stay sober
we're too melodious
we're to be heard
let it percolate through the grapevine
let the whole town frown upon us
and when they say we're losing it
we'll just nod and realise that the end is around the corner

cassette

cassette's the name of my cat
just got cassette yesterday
strapped an orange plastic cassette round her neck
i'm making a grooming list
feed her some milk and some leftover food
i sure ain't gonna teach her any tricks
just gonna paw fight her everyday
kittens are so squeezable and cassette's a strangle magnet
last night she preyed on her first victim
a fucking cockroach carcass greeted me in the morning
and cassette as daper as ever,,so nimble so deft with her stance purred away
......wow man my life's just been turned around
she's got exceptionally long whiskers
so i guess,,she feels more she learns more
but does she have any vices??
sure as hell
......i wanna smother her 9 lives one at a time everytime she pees on the sofa
.......i wanna throw her down my balcony everytime she changes her name (i mean she doesn't respond to my incessant cassette cassette)
nevertheless what's a lil bad blood between us
me and cassette are gonna make history
we'll have to wait and see,,won't we???

fix

i might die if i don't smoke right now
i think i'd look good in this gear doing a shot of whisky
this song doesn't have nectar
and your mate doesn't sell her punchlines well
i just woke up from a dream so where am i?
caress
molest
so you wanna have a stare down?
i'll bite my lips and smother a smile
my eyes wide open
nah you stand your ground
i'm being missed somewhere else
by the way jesus
that was a distraction right?
i mean you brought mary along to make me conscious
you know so well
my legendary social awkwardness

10 rupees

i know some things that you think i don't
just like kim jong -il i see everything
yea like the dear leader
ya'll better be scared of me
i'm no burmese princess
ofcourse i adore her
she's a modern day saint
but that's just visceral
i mean i've got an agenda
so until i'm properly at your face
i'll be sat here chewing a gum
by the way alex
thanks for the memories
riding in a big truck in your city
i can't imagine that ever happening again
you're not dead right?
one day i'll make money and come visit you
i'm charging my phone now
i don't know why
i feel the urge to thow it against the wall
i'm such a poor talker
by the way dilip and rajan make a mean pair
they double tag me
i bet they'll be suave and refined very soon
yeh it's the money they make

random 4

k:: (yawning away to glory)
m:: (watching tv)
l:: (looking into the mirror what else)
hey fuckers let's go out get wasted
i mean i got a new car right?
and later on i can score some heroin for you k
i know you're upset and broke
you fucking cheap sonofagun
m:: hey e how come we never do anythiing i want to?
k:: shut the fuck up kid
m:: but i'm just saying...
(k cuts him off)
k:: i'm feeling mental so you'd better wise up and be quiet
yea right boys
keep it quiet in the car right?
i mean bitches yap not gents,,we clear?
-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x
so 4 young lunatics
music be on the stereo
stones to the core
suddenly it's night already
only box not checked????
yea it's the car crash
all 4 dead as dead

table tennis

a guy i went to school with?
well he's a dad now
yea and before that he got married too!!
and remember that hot girl in college?
she looks like a mom now
i bet she's turned into her mom,,wow!!
is it ok that i don't wanna grow up
i mean i don't want responsibility
i only wanna fill my diary
today's a sad day
my favourite right back has called it a day
farewell gary neville
i hate people who take advantage of me when i'm getting clean
like i'm so weak and fragile
and that's why i'd rather rate songs in my itunes
i don't need to go out
that's how i keep my nicotine urge under wraps
and i needn't even drink!!!
thank god i'm pausing right now
i mean i couldn't have lasted so long
i say man,,it's good to be sane
one liner two liner
if i was a photographer
cause my captions are neat
man!!!!!!

to boredom and imaginary friends

you can't cook
this is my kitchen
these are my knifes
these are my ingredients
i mean can't you lay off
i see you in the morning
i see you at lunch
i see you at dinner
hear me out
......i don't wan't you in my food k?
we don't even have the same dress sense
how the fuck are we eating together in the first place
your music's ok
.....yea for funerals
and if you shimmy right now
i'll shoot you down
i'm dying
yell
yell
yell
fat lip
yeah!!!!!!!!!
hospital again
i love doctors
they're so un-attached
they fix you up
take your money

bully

so much for your catwalk
don't fret cause i still love you
i can afford some of my time for you
but i couldn't possibly give you time for an extensive conversation
you aren't a good talker anyways
you are an old trick
you can't blame me
go exchange them catwalking for a pair of crutches
you were 24 right?
i romanced you with thirteen on my mind
come to think of it
we could say you dabbled in some fun too
those rides in the middle of the night?
puking on the road as our car raced away in broad daylight
yea i still have some warmth for ya
i'll have an orange breezer in your name
that's all peach

i'm a pushover

when i talk to you
time don't elapse
i could rhyme relapse here
but that'd be just (too) cheesy
i'm not a poet plotting the perfect rhyme
i'm just looking to imprint an essence
i'm so stupid when i drug
the things i say could turn the whole world red
i've got onitsuka shoes
they help me to take cautious steps
they aid me to skip bad habits
i'm listening to champagne supernova
and i remember school
who'd have thought then
that some of us would make it
that some of us would hang ourselves
and that we'd never relive our classroom follies
or ever meet again
life is depressing
i guess i'm just a sad person
i'm affected by societal norms
but i'm not into it
i wish i didn't possess a heart tonight
it's so cold
i guess the chill is preserving me
but i'll be rotten soon enough

brazenly for you.....after d

smoking a lonely cigarette
the moonlight illuminating me your face
i wish you were single
i would marry you
i swear you could negate all my vices
minus my drugs i'll be smarter
and i'll write you better poems
why do you want a runt
look at me i'm a fine specimen aren't i?
i don't mean to offend
you've got me in a daze that's all
the fun we could have......
we'd be in a band
drive all night drunk on wine
listen to our record collection
love love love you
love love love me
banish everyone else from our lives
just smother each other with our jibes and quips and fuck all day
fun enough right?
tell me---
what's there to life really?

halo'd evil

this comedown
this music
river phoenix
i don't have any feelings
my ass is gonna betray me i know for sure
my insides are churning already
i won't throw any tantrums
it's just a circle
i've drawn this circle too many times
i can do without sunlight
i can do without the caress of the moonlight
i can do without the affection from my puppy
i will suffer silently
sip my peach tea
prepare for another line
lips pursed
brows furrowed
eyes squinted
intellect squandered
come and get me now

5 megapixel

i always fancy a brawl
i get high and i lose it
in my mind i'm a bonafide rockstar
in my head i plot your downfall
in my heart i side with the leftists
i'm not clued in i guess
i crave for love,,anykind
i'm just a soul looking for my waterfall
sugar man
it's bout the sweet stuff
that hook from that song that dwells in you ?
i'm happy when i have appetite
sometimes i'm foul too
but prayers from friends and family?
......they work like a charm
i've gotten here so fast
i know i know a wee bit more
and from the lil that i understand
rumi would count me if he was here

a lapse

take me off your friends list
or get caught in my blabbering crossfire
keep your distance
or i'll catch up and burden you with the weight of my world
wipe the mist off your mirror
see yourself properly
remind yourself you've got a chiseled jaw
your lack of inhibition allows me to ride your coattail
we've been everywhere since we started right?
our collective apathy has left me musing
we can't listen to beck anymore
all our jewels have lost their shine
dive under the radar
family caress family duress
i've had it upto here
dig a burrow and tempt fate all over again