patch

i don't even know what i am writing anymore
there's a bunch of sayings stuck in my zombie head
and they vibrate and echo like a dark distant doom
late nights like these are what make up my psychosis
when the fear engulfs and the positives flee
when i can't vouch for my future
where my calculations don't add up
where i'm struggling in those vacant porous heart of darkness passages
they say we find ourselves in our loneliness
they say it's the ebb and flow of life
and there's therapy in trying to write
but if it's therapeutic it's not nearly acrobatic
if i insure myself
don't i become just a spectator to life?
conformity killed a civilization
that's what the earth tombstone is going to read like
my soul isn't potent
so i just flicker with my wisdom
i can't lead a bunch
i only have an iota on sense

paradox bubble

i am a lullaby mom and dad
i will always fit into y'alls timings
i haven't a will nor a plan
i'll take a time out and meditate.....
dive deep into my array of thoughts
find all the rebellious narcissism shifting forms
and before they can project themselves and clash this calm.......
i will be content living not living
for what's there to it right?
i can't even guess minute to minute
been 32 years of life behind me
32 trillion life time to comprehend
and i can't even say a fraction was mine
i have the best intentions but also i have the urge to contradict myself every passing moment
a paradox bubble very aptly
and i'm sure that doesn't make me unreliable
i am me and i am here and i am forging ahead
away with the norms
live just in my mind
i am just a transient
my actions don't relate to me
i'm complicated like that

struggles with conformity

you should read my mind
my will should be your flag
you're minimal and lacking in your love
my love is endowed
it's got such potential
let's not flex for supremacy
fall in line for me,you.....
you can take all the routes
but when you arrive you'd have realised it was such a waste
cause we're meant to be
there's no waning
only hierarchical elevation and sound-bites from my pestering mind
but my drill is not devoid of devotion
i've tasked myself for this love
so i'll be here till the last flicker

fuck you for your sound bites all you cadres

we need defiance
cup 'em by their balls and leave them writhing
i'm fed up of revolution without wheels
i have sinister will for them
parade all the kilonsers naked
stab them
tie a knot with their cocks
cork their cunts with hot burning coal
all the tales i heard as a kid
the books i gorged so frenetically as if famished
fuck how i idolized
from murmur to brotherhood to deceit
our leaders are all without spine
the church is bullish at best
all us youngsters can't speak up
where the fuck is the mike?
we are all a cursed lot
with my hands raised high....
just a wish
a thought
a mantra
a blessing
a request
a desire
an order
......something cataclysmic
i don't care if i perish
but i want better than this

h-a-p-p-y

this is my last exit
i'm over maniacally
i swear i'm checking out
life's so conveniently laid out for all of us
i'm pissing over the smack
i'm lording over the sauce
i'll be faithful to her
i'm just gon go about the rest of my chapter mechanically
i'm not gon be looking for fodder
just embrace grace so hard and be completely channelled
this morning,looking at myself in the mirror i saw a fool
the circle that i always talk about?
i feel i'm finding ways to curve
just foolishly arrived here careening
peace out

#-#-#

stashed myself so properly and GODLIKE
been the eons (sincerely very minus)
so since last evening i've been at it.
actually i sent up quite a quantity of that DMP smack
but firstly i have this deep urge to make
don't ask and don't tell has left a deep impression on my well
the military household,i was raised in
and with all my affinity to the stiff upper lip variety!
but for my inclinations to all things brit
ME and my associate would like to have our coffee in SILENCE
our thoughts go out to all the WOUNDED ANIMAL SHELTER RESIDENTS WHO COULDN'T hear the rime and chime on this glorious sunshine-belt



P.S. but also,me and my associate,we have an acute inkling that those burmese reefers neatly rolled and served to us unwittingly elated us!

profane gushes

if i am fit to rule the world i will stand over it one day
looking down i will survey with a grin that only despot's have patented
leave an indelible chapter in history for all the future classroom punks
my notoriety will be whispered
it shan't ever be heard!
that's the volume of fright i will imprint into my herd
i'm captain evil
plain and simple
nothing in between
thoughtless
and without an iota of brightness inside me.

she :-).....(subtle pun in it)

here in my room
sunlight through my door
i'm sprawled on my bed
i have juices
i have sweets
i have health
i have you as well
there's no reason to go looking elsewhere
just rot in my bed thinking of you
........and i can equate that with bliss!
i'll use all of my literature to woo you
i'll dedicate all of my poems to you and make you smile
i'll even come across as whimsical,it might captivate you
this and everything else for you.