mediocre scientist conforms

mom dad i'mma die tonight........i haven't spiralled out of control......but a chunk of my psyche is going ashtray tonight,,,,,,,them cheap adulterated brown grinds that come in lovely sachets.......tsk they're getting to me.......i guess i'mma be all squandered and debilitated even before the curtain calls.....i make a vow to thyself everynight before i cap my eye lids......that one day i'll pen an ode....a novel maybe.....something classic........that'll maybe make the classroom punks squirm no end.......i wanna belong to a bracket....deep inside i only long for acceptance......whew i write and write and write but in the end i only contradict myself.......fuck my stopwatch is giving me the times up beep........one lil caper before bedtime......sour cherry pickings!

Sound Check No. 97

i'll say man....i listen to the best music.......it's all i got......i won't retreat from hea......i'm anchored and stationed......always polite and subtle......it's just my guile.....my guise been killing ya'll for deacdes.....visionary fumes fools.....brown girl in the ring.......i'm waiting on my dealer as i imprint some intellect......yeh arrogant as fuck as fack can be......leave me be......treat this as some white noise.......go compose yourself at home......you'll need a whole lotta restoring after you go thru my vice sprinkled lines......humility does get stale this way too.....love only

we haven't turned around

took the privilege once again.......knocking red.......red is fine.......didn't run today......i amuse myself everytime i get high so this episode gets the posterity treatment in the form of words.......i'm listening to supergrass i should coco.......it's fun man......i really think....actually i think i know for sure that we've had the best music to date from the 90's.......the 90's gave me shoulder blades dammit.....!!!!!......................today i'm a son of a gun.......i'm retarted a wee bit too......if you chance to look at me i'd horrify you.....totally grossing out in my room.........the mirror will live to tell tales that'll leave ghosts petrified......they'll flee shedding their cloaks as souvenirs.......hahaha.......one more swig....amen.

save me

some songs make you cry.........they do man......they make me so fragile a hair could whip me agony......right now im listening to tracy bonham's latest album........just going thru my first listen so i can't judge pirates.......burdens of being upright is still one of my fav bonham's album.........anyways the song that has got me whipped......man i listened to it for the longest time......was on loop for a whole fucking year i swear.......i was big time into heroin.........earplugged on my way in the taxi while making a score......there were 2 songs actually.....are you sad by OLP being the other one;;;;;;;;;;;;;might ya'll be asking what i'm on about.......i'd to jot this out cause that song came on randomly on my itunes.......and it made me grieve!! CHEERS TO TIMES THAT GOT ME HEA...........b-r-e-a-t-h-e.

one day i'll quit ciggies for sure

so 5 days after being a zealot in the revolution........i've stepped aside......can't fuck about like it's a lifelong calling.......exercise and shite munn!!!!.........haha a lil off key with my zeal hea.....i'm swigging a bot of fine red wine listening to fun loving criminals........just feels so right i dunno........i don't love any girl right now.....i don't fancy any slag either........whole of today??? me and my dad man........we was taking mechanical care of my car........and might i say it was surreal........hahahaha......one more SWIG........yippie.......ok i'm gonna cut it short......bye

was earnest 15 mins back

i need drugs right now.........bent my mind on it this whole afternoon........well the sachet of brown that eventually arrived didn't gimme a twitch......what subtle gear they peddle these days........infamy man.......so later after dinner just as i was sneaking my car out to make a grander score......dad caught wind of my shenanigan......and so the fuck me retreated back to my camp .....and am groggy arse sat on my over-crafted dementia ridden plastic chair........how long are they gonna suppress my revolution???.......i guess i'll just litter my muck churned spew into this lovely symmetrical architectural alphabetical thing called VOCAB spawn.

nearly copacetic

if i loved someone i'd cease to exist......my poetry will decompose into stale soup......i'd be clinically devoid cause my glorious soul can't splice,,,,i can't mutate......natural selection won't allow......i'm fucking PLURAL......as chaotic as my minimalistic drive.......loner that i am.......you know i've figured my part in this big evolutionary puzzle.........this is incomplete.......part 2 coming up!!!

THIRTY ?????? 30

today i ate more than 5 times the amount i usually shove.........man,,,,oh fucking phew........my belly just got it's own killer gravititional charisma.......guess it's GOD'S shining gift of a new addition to my repartee of deft maneuverability...... hahaha i may just premier my skill with a grand theft......hahaha............right now????......stiffling the keyboard,,rather stabbing 'em with my finely sharpened manicured finger-nails...... bodes well for me......hey..........know?????------i'm a cacooned gal,,ladies and gentlemen......i love my bubble....... i love my bubble....... AND SOMEONE NEEDS TO BURST MY SEE-THRU COMFORT AND LEMME FEEL SUFFERING.............i'll say AMEN when i'm defeated

he's tall

i was watching a movie but then the lights went poof.......sorry lament at 45 past 12.......listening to the ataris,,my screen light illuminating me random drills......hahaha......this band brings back good token memories.........the thing is fuck i'm nearly 30 ........the real thing being my feelings are so effortless........i mean i go back more than a decade now when i resurrect memories........it's no strain at all how i've got hea,,,time flies man........this wee morning i love you

run whole fucking life

saying it's so boring is so cliched........i went out and got my car checked.......some maintenance expenditure coming up people......hahahaha.....i wanna blog my gigantic hollow brains out this early morn......like all that's keeping me awake,,noises from my supposed overworked chime chestnut;my fooking brain.......hahaha.....fuck.....i breathe in.....place my feet together......stand erect......look skyward,,hands behind my back.....i realise that i've not had fun since i stepped out of the revolution......i mean the sause is fun........but i'm a dreamer,,so.........i need to quit this right now........i'm derailed.