mediocre scientist conforms

mom dad i'mma die tonight........i haven't spiralled out of control......but a chunk of my psyche is going ashtray tonight,,,,,,,them cheap adulterated brown grinds that come in lovely sachets.......tsk they're getting to me.......i guess i'mma be all squandered and debilitated even before the curtain calls.....i make a vow to thyself everynight before i cap my eye lids......that one day i'll pen an ode....a novel maybe.....something classic........that'll maybe make the classroom punks squirm no end.......i wanna belong to a bracket....deep inside i only long for acceptance......whew i write and write and write but in the end i only contradict myself.......fuck my stopwatch is giving me the times up beep........one lil caper before bedtime......sour cherry pickings!