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floating in a daydream
bursts of cola bubbles
rage with whisky wrath
what a reel
......with laughter in the fading background
what scenic picturesque surroundings we drove into?
hey let's listen to your tape for sometime
i've got a hobby
nearly a habit
it's a hobby
not a habit
hand in hand
walk into friends
now they're all talking
and i'm gonna fall down
time to go into denial
now where are you
seems like you just vanished in thin air
i'm going mental

i wanna sleep please

if i stare intently at the wall for sometime
i can make faces appear
and i can have a small chat and while away some drab
sip a black coffee and decant my refrains to the open mouthed faces
this is how i empty myself
this is how i remain hollow after all this time
so fucking lost in my own lil trip
my room my empire my prison
you can make anything seem pretty in a catchy 2 min song
i think i'll murder you and pen you a ditty
well who are you?
just voices
another villain
another hero
yea a caper inside my persona
i'm losing my personality
my ears are fucking red
my eyes are fucking read
my knees feel disjointed
and i've been sober 23 days

wait it away

sitting out with the stars
i'd say things to you
we'd share cigarettes
the universe regaled us even in our sullenness
i wish we had 2 lives each
and i wish we could lend our lives too
so did ya get married?
do you play sports anymore?
so much for my alternative way of thinking
i'm always getting well
since the last relapse?
i'm feeling good now
i'm getting back my confidence too
but i need a lot of new clothes
one thing i don't know
is i always go back to 90's music
i guess i'm dated and sorted
i think my soul formed it's blueprint then
it's been eons since i hung out late
fueled on alcohol and smacked to my brim
well

fuck cricket

i luv yer pikcher
i dig it
i wanna sniff it
indulge me this folly please?
20 days since i smoked
appetite is ill
what can i do
yea i drink so much water
break some sweat
that's what i do
i can't think too much
i don't allow myself
contrary to beliefs
that's how i'm living
but it's all golden
i'm a puritan
and for real i've got jesus sitting on my shoulder
whispers to me dizzy cosmical doctrines
i think he really digs my point of view
y'know i talk to myself now and then
ai meg ryan's gotten old and wrinkly right?
man wasn't she cute
and what about demi moore in indecent proposal?
i guess ashton sees her in atleast one of his supposed daughters
when you get a lil older.......
they say we get cynical
our dreams get more mythical
and we lose our aversion to perversion
fuck all that jive
i'm just topping up my sobriety
one fine day i'll walk into that bar
and ask for the loudest drink

charlie

spin spin spin
go round for me
bleed from your nose
let your eyes hit the roof of your head
are you dizzy enough?
we need to stick with the script here
we can't tote a bible
we can't stay sober
we're too melodious
we're to be heard
let it percolate through the grapevine
let the whole town frown upon us
and when they say we're losing it
we'll just nod and realise that the end is around the corner

cassette

cassette's the name of my cat
just got cassette yesterday
strapped an orange plastic cassette round her neck
i'm making a grooming list
feed her some milk and some leftover food
i sure ain't gonna teach her any tricks
just gonna paw fight her everyday
kittens are so squeezable and cassette's a strangle magnet
last night she preyed on her first victim
a fucking cockroach carcass greeted me in the morning
and cassette as daper as ever,,so nimble so deft with her stance purred away
......wow man my life's just been turned around
she's got exceptionally long whiskers
so i guess,,she feels more she learns more
but does she have any vices??
sure as hell
......i wanna smother her 9 lives one at a time everytime she pees on the sofa
.......i wanna throw her down my balcony everytime she changes her name (i mean she doesn't respond to my incessant cassette cassette)
nevertheless what's a lil bad blood between us
me and cassette are gonna make history
we'll have to wait and see,,won't we???

fix

i might die if i don't smoke right now
i think i'd look good in this gear doing a shot of whisky
this song doesn't have nectar
and your mate doesn't sell her punchlines well
i just woke up from a dream so where am i?
caress
molest
so you wanna have a stare down?
i'll bite my lips and smother a smile
my eyes wide open
nah you stand your ground
i'm being missed somewhere else
by the way jesus
that was a distraction right?
i mean you brought mary along to make me conscious
you know so well
my legendary social awkwardness

10 rupees

i know some things that you think i don't
just like kim jong -il i see everything
yea like the dear leader
ya'll better be scared of me
i'm no burmese princess
ofcourse i adore her
she's a modern day saint
but that's just visceral
i mean i've got an agenda
so until i'm properly at your face
i'll be sat here chewing a gum
by the way alex
thanks for the memories
riding in a big truck in your city
i can't imagine that ever happening again
you're not dead right?
one day i'll make money and come visit you
i'm charging my phone now
i don't know why
i feel the urge to thow it against the wall
i'm such a poor talker
by the way dilip and rajan make a mean pair
they double tag me
i bet they'll be suave and refined very soon
yeh it's the money they make

random 4

k:: (yawning away to glory)
m:: (watching tv)
l:: (looking into the mirror what else)
hey fuckers let's go out get wasted
i mean i got a new car right?
and later on i can score some heroin for you k
i know you're upset and broke
you fucking cheap sonofagun
m:: hey e how come we never do anythiing i want to?
k:: shut the fuck up kid
m:: but i'm just saying...
(k cuts him off)
k:: i'm feeling mental so you'd better wise up and be quiet
yea right boys
keep it quiet in the car right?
i mean bitches yap not gents,,we clear?
-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x
so 4 young lunatics
music be on the stereo
stones to the core
suddenly it's night already
only box not checked????
yea it's the car crash
all 4 dead as dead

table tennis

a guy i went to school with?
well he's a dad now
yea and before that he got married too!!
and remember that hot girl in college?
she looks like a mom now
i bet she's turned into her mom,,wow!!
is it ok that i don't wanna grow up
i mean i don't want responsibility
i only wanna fill my diary
today's a sad day
my favourite right back has called it a day
farewell gary neville
i hate people who take advantage of me when i'm getting clean
like i'm so weak and fragile
and that's why i'd rather rate songs in my itunes
i don't need to go out
that's how i keep my nicotine urge under wraps
and i needn't even drink!!!
thank god i'm pausing right now
i mean i couldn't have lasted so long
i say man,,it's good to be sane
one liner two liner
if i was a photographer
cause my captions are neat
man!!!!!!