gimmick's gotten to me alright

all the cool kids
will you ever go out of fashion?
do you know how to weep?
yer clothes ain't no cushion
friday nights we all peak
monday we come crashing down
flowers bloom during the season
dogs bark at the emptiness
it's quite funny they see ghosts!!!
.....while the scenesters make love
amorous currents flowing from the whisky bottles
tonight the kids are gifting us mayhem
yea the fashionable kids are nodding affirmatively to one 'nother
all this time i've been down?
they've been smirking scented in confidence
how i wish i was 19 again
how i wish away wantonly

4 am supernova

don't worry so much
just not a phone person
but i'll call you soon enough
will it make you happy?
yesterday was fun right?
the wine was good man
i think i'ma stick to wine for sometime
i wish you'd left yer drawers behind!!
haha then i'd have been sniffing it like a dog
poor me
---driving back today morn after dropping you?
.........felt like i was winning the race
i'm just fucking sleepwalking
can't wait for this to be over
in the end i'm just gonna use you
you are just another chorus from a pop song
i wish i weren't mean

suicide

tonight i go
electrolite on repeat on my stereo
light 'nother mean fag
bye bullies
bye sluts
hinterland here i come
easily man
ya'll so pretty
but as soon as i'm gone
ya'll be fighting again
find someone else to loathe
find someone else to rest 'em strains
i've gotten hollow
and i'm dizzy from the abuse
cuts aren't rewarding
drugs don't remedy
my song ain't melodious
guess my crutch-addled self can't fight anymore
i'm cutting the cord

tv cares 'bout me

gratification was easy when i was younger
a spoon of sugar
that was it
'nough to get the kicks in
5 rupees too
not anymore so i'ma break this hea
i was once charmed for a day and a half listening to elvis
wherever that line came from
....go and die
i felt alive for the first time when i saw an accident
the biker got smashed under a rotten jeep
his head was severed
my mom was trying to shield my eyes
but i was having none of it
......come on this was a movie right out my car window
told stories 'bout this for months
and then gratification came in the form of neat lil pill strips and stashes of powder
but fuck that
i mean i can't evoke happiness these days
there's no thrill
everyone's grown old
a tad bit bitter,,cynical or virtuous
i check my inbox and??
nobody fucking cares man
dropping a line is arduous i guess
reaching out makes me look lonely or radically disoriented i think
so what's the fix ezung?
well,,limber up and
bloody just break your shell

circa-then and now

when i finally show up
will you welcome me?
i hope you remember me fondly
cause i do i do
i'm still here listening to the same songs
i wear your clothes too,now and then
and i wish you were here to laugh at my jokes
if you come back you can be the elder one
cause i'm so sorry for not knowing
i'm tamer now
my ego has peaked
it's waning now
i tell you,you'd love it
i'm still not equipped
it's no fun learning without you
i downloaded a familiar song today
and this is how i'm placed here
.....solitary life to live
.......i know

heroin

i am charmed
so i am flightless
i will just stare
my headphones my gloves and my intentions
cigarette rested on my left ear
look at my eyes,,i'm dazed
this regulated sullenness
how can i not care 'bout my soul
sometimes i easily sway
at times i walk the line
most times i'm mending
....doing the double
ya know being curious and trynna be a good son
dawn to dusk
i got my A minor subtleties guiding me
i navigate
i can't remain unaffected
cause i'm unravelling myself every second
you're good to me
you give me heart
.....aerial prowess
and watching football is fun with you.
haha.

carpet decoral

looking out my window
can't see that chick today
i think she's off on a holiday
i'm wearing my brand new tee
smoke a cigarette
sip some coca-cola
by the way i'm outside my patio now
listening to idlewild
i'm not gonna see her today
but i'm not gonna revolt
i'll be sober and keep my eyes keen
i love fall weather
i think my personality's a fall moonlight
if i had you over
i'd offer you tea
unless of course you're into delayed shuttle flights
glide....slide.....we be gone gone gone for a long time
but no,,
before i lose my appeal
lemme make it clear
i'm no different
and i think i'm special