errthing in reverse

slide off the grid
i wanna be alone
i must learn to love myself
there's no other way
resistance is a myth
we share a joke
we share a cigarette
we toast over some wine
and often i drive in a haze
i must learn to draw a neater circle
i haven't lost hope
i never had any to begin with
i see myself as a dot
but i guess i've attached too much importance on moi
i've only been seeking
.....while i could have just paused
one comma at a time
one stress,,one anguish,,one recklessness
a window
a hindsight
lil more restrain
this is a caution

lord smite her

even though i have a picture of you in my wall?
i hardly notice it anymore
the plan is to let it gather dust
one fine day....
the day will arrive
it'll be eroded and i won't even recognize you
just like calenders get redundant every passing month?
yea yours is like a chapter in my life which hardly ignites fondness
i'm sipping iced tea lemon flavour
and by my side i have lucy
we play spit games all day
we had a car crash last night
we came out unscathed
so guess this is gonna last awhile
i'll be young forever
your dad is the referee alright
so then i'm gary neville
i'll spew filth at him when i come around
chew gum and wish you away
every grind?
i'm crushing your brittle bones
i guess i'm so far away right now
love

tell me grandpa

as the sun stokes the weather
as i embrace the warmth in my jacket
as memories of you fuel me
my face permeates my open nature
took some pride cause i made you stumble
i'm not always at my best behavior
i talk too much when i sample wine
i know i write myself off
i dreamt last night
i dreamt that i was a foreigner
and in my dream i was trying to hold on to what you were saying
and i was falling with outstretched hands
well hey hey i'm walking to your house now
i light a cigarette
and with one drag
i get back my frame of mind
tonight's christmas eve
i haven't found my eve
and adam's a fairy
so let's roast him on a spit

my escape

the suns adolescent rays hit my eyes
it's winter you can't hurt me
face you bravely
soak you up and take you back to my room
drench you out into a cup
my cup runneth,,it'll overflow
i'll drink you incandescent glory
sit still all day
i won't pass this glow
i can't share this magic
doodle lines with my eye-beams on the table
melancholia circa 90's
evoke it with some silversun pickups
it's getting rather late to catch up with the tribe
i might as well knock all my soul into the table
leave scribbles that'll glow in the dark

sinless this night

won't sleep tonight
the drips
yea man my drips
gotta be keen and let 'em flow
flow into me
i've got music
stone roses tonight
feel so good tonight
better than ever
as good as the best that i've seen
nursing instincts kicking overtime
hate everyone else
it don't matter
ya'll all so far away
and here i am;;safer than any burrowed animal
politely cocooned i must affirm
insulated from wanton earthly urges
tomorrow morning
as daylight invades
i'll be ready
dive and get lost into life traffic
the chaos can swallow me
but until then.....
i can reflect as much as i want
take pleasure in this solemn loneliness
how artful you are
i'm completely surprised

cigarette

the devil resides here
me? i'm just a geek
come to pay my fees
can't piss the devil right?
don't have much to say
you'll not listen anyways
my opinions are a day late always
i'm past it and out of fad

genghis khan

you've got digits so thick
if you'd tell me it was so tight
i'd just go hysterical
it'd be so whimsical
you don't kiss and tell a bro
yer index ring is bigger than the moon
i've seen you make a dent with a carom striker
yes sir when you were re-bounding!
yes sir your finger salute too
i'll just shimmy away,,the virgins on my phones
i'll just narc up,,rider on a storm
i'm jim morrison
and inside my rib-cage?
i've got a heart beating away
thumping much too fast for a placid personality
am much too elite
layne staley counts me
i've never been to a gig
i am the gig!!

cassette's dead

the shortest route to my heart?
it's a stream that pretends like a river
it's a stream that behaves like an ocean
and please don't wear camouflage
i need yer purest intentions
don't tease me
just head for the heart
nothing in between
i mean no sojourns
don't clog don't blog
i'ma treat you with respect
receive you with virgin empathy
we'll sit atop a hill
squander folly,,narcissism;;i mean i'll let you indulge me any which way
most times you've left me high and dry
post,,the last relapse?? i sigh this wry gaze
cause i know black from white
and i've seen 'nough of yer movies
but you still have me tricked
you still know my oddities
so i'll just curse away at my restraints
i'm flesh and bones
and with you streaming into me?
the stage manifests itself with grandeur
come on
go on
embellish me
what's sober?
let's caper 'bout
show 'em young lads how it's gotta be done.

my shortest ever;;my runt like rant

hospi rocs
phoenix suxs
sleeping 15 hours straight is funny
geeesssssus were you watching over me?
or were you under me trynna blow me to hell?
ok change of topic
if you notice me?
i'd say you're pretty
won't burden you with my comedowns either
hmm you think i'm messed up!!
you haven't a clue
but guess it'll work out
i mean my family still adores me

persuasions

somewhere inside my head
there's an ethereal deviant
instructs me to strum
makes me all slurry
it's an extension of me actually,,so......
but like all i'm innocent till proven
so hea i am sat with my paranoia
flick mine eyes from side to side
i panic yes sir
--but i'm slick;;;you won't notice
you'd assume i'm meek and looking for affection
in truth i wanna afflict you with my fraudulence
monies to die for
monies to live for
monies to fucking mingle
i got pj harvey on my headphones,,what you gonna do??
i can kill with these tunes
and i don't care for secrets
my temptress is highly evolved so i can't refuse
i wanna flee this red bull mess
heroin sullenness keeps me at bay
but then when i need to replenish?
that's the mechanic

sailor's salute

i get my swagger from drugs
i go nuts for 'em daggers
listen to jay all day
i think i'm more reatard than him
nothing inside me
i'm a scared lil piggy
lay bare the myth
no riot no cool no freedom
just shivers and a dying liver
say it out loud
said it out louder
i'm scarred and haunted without my dealer
no feelings
no drive
i'm skinless;;i can't feel you
i'm skinny,,not a result of neglect
i want out,,yet i might just fluke it
live to a ripe old 100
make a living telling stories through the gaps between my teeth