errthing in reverse

slide off the grid
i wanna be alone
i must learn to love myself
there's no other way
resistance is a myth
we share a joke
we share a cigarette
we toast over some wine
and often i drive in a haze
i must learn to draw a neater circle
i haven't lost hope
i never had any to begin with
i see myself as a dot
but i guess i've attached too much importance on moi
i've only been seeking
.....while i could have just paused
one comma at a time
one stress,,one anguish,,one recklessness
a window
a hindsight
lil more restrain
this is a caution

lord smite her

even though i have a picture of you in my wall?
i hardly notice it anymore
the plan is to let it gather dust
one fine day....
the day will arrive
it'll be eroded and i won't even recognize you
just like calenders get redundant every passing month?
yea yours is like a chapter in my life which hardly ignites fondness
i'm sipping iced tea lemon flavour
and by my side i have lucy
we play spit games all day
we had a car crash last night
we came out unscathed
so guess this is gonna last awhile
i'll be young forever
your dad is the referee alright
so then i'm gary neville
i'll spew filth at him when i come around
chew gum and wish you away
every grind?
i'm crushing your brittle bones
i guess i'm so far away right now
love

tell me grandpa

as the sun stokes the weather
as i embrace the warmth in my jacket
as memories of you fuel me
my face permeates my open nature
took some pride cause i made you stumble
i'm not always at my best behavior
i talk too much when i sample wine
i know i write myself off
i dreamt last night
i dreamt that i was a foreigner
and in my dream i was trying to hold on to what you were saying
and i was falling with outstretched hands
well hey hey i'm walking to your house now
i light a cigarette
and with one drag
i get back my frame of mind
tonight's christmas eve
i haven't found my eve
and adam's a fairy
so let's roast him on a spit

my escape

the suns adolescent rays hit my eyes
it's winter you can't hurt me
face you bravely
soak you up and take you back to my room
drench you out into a cup
my cup runneth,,it'll overflow
i'll drink you incandescent glory
sit still all day
i won't pass this glow
i can't share this magic
doodle lines with my eye-beams on the table
melancholia circa 90's
evoke it with some silversun pickups
it's getting rather late to catch up with the tribe
i might as well knock all my soul into the table
leave scribbles that'll glow in the dark

sinless this night

won't sleep tonight
the drips
yea man my drips
gotta be keen and let 'em flow
flow into me
i've got music
stone roses tonight
feel so good tonight
better than ever
as good as the best that i've seen
nursing instincts kicking overtime
hate everyone else
it don't matter
ya'll all so far away
and here i am;;safer than any burrowed animal
politely cocooned i must affirm
insulated from wanton earthly urges
tomorrow morning
as daylight invades
i'll be ready
dive and get lost into life traffic
the chaos can swallow me
but until then.....
i can reflect as much as i want
take pleasure in this solemn loneliness
how artful you are
i'm completely surprised

cigarette

the devil resides here
me? i'm just a geek
come to pay my fees
can't piss the devil right?
don't have much to say
you'll not listen anyways
my opinions are a day late always
i'm past it and out of fad

genghis khan

you've got digits so thick
if you'd tell me it was so tight
i'd just go hysterical
it'd be so whimsical
you don't kiss and tell a bro
yer index ring is bigger than the moon
i've seen you make a dent with a carom striker
yes sir when you were re-bounding!
yes sir your finger salute too
i'll just shimmy away,,the virgins on my phones
i'll just narc up,,rider on a storm
i'm jim morrison
and inside my rib-cage?
i've got a heart beating away
thumping much too fast for a placid personality
am much too elite
layne staley counts me
i've never been to a gig
i am the gig!!

cassette's dead

the shortest route to my heart?
it's a stream that pretends like a river
it's a stream that behaves like an ocean
and please don't wear camouflage
i need yer purest intentions
don't tease me
just head for the heart
nothing in between
i mean no sojourns
don't clog don't blog
i'ma treat you with respect
receive you with virgin empathy
we'll sit atop a hill
squander folly,,narcissism;;i mean i'll let you indulge me any which way
most times you've left me high and dry
post,,the last relapse?? i sigh this wry gaze
cause i know black from white
and i've seen 'nough of yer movies
but you still have me tricked
you still know my oddities
so i'll just curse away at my restraints
i'm flesh and bones
and with you streaming into me?
the stage manifests itself with grandeur
come on
go on
embellish me
what's sober?
let's caper 'bout
show 'em young lads how it's gotta be done.

my shortest ever;;my runt like rant

hospi rocs
phoenix suxs
sleeping 15 hours straight is funny
geeesssssus were you watching over me?
or were you under me trynna blow me to hell?
ok change of topic
if you notice me?
i'd say you're pretty
won't burden you with my comedowns either
hmm you think i'm messed up!!
you haven't a clue
but guess it'll work out
i mean my family still adores me

persuasions

somewhere inside my head
there's an ethereal deviant
instructs me to strum
makes me all slurry
it's an extension of me actually,,so......
but like all i'm innocent till proven
so hea i am sat with my paranoia
flick mine eyes from side to side
i panic yes sir
--but i'm slick;;;you won't notice
you'd assume i'm meek and looking for affection
in truth i wanna afflict you with my fraudulence
monies to die for
monies to live for
monies to fucking mingle
i got pj harvey on my headphones,,what you gonna do??
i can kill with these tunes
and i don't care for secrets
my temptress is highly evolved so i can't refuse
i wanna flee this red bull mess
heroin sullenness keeps me at bay
but then when i need to replenish?
that's the mechanic

sailor's salute

i get my swagger from drugs
i go nuts for 'em daggers
listen to jay all day
i think i'm more reatard than him
nothing inside me
i'm a scared lil piggy
lay bare the myth
no riot no cool no freedom
just shivers and a dying liver
say it out loud
said it out louder
i'm scarred and haunted without my dealer
no feelings
no drive
i'm skinless;;i can't feel you
i'm skinny,,not a result of neglect
i want out,,yet i might just fluke it
live to a ripe old 100
make a living telling stories through the gaps between my teeth

gimmick's gotten to me alright

all the cool kids
will you ever go out of fashion?
do you know how to weep?
yer clothes ain't no cushion
friday nights we all peak
monday we come crashing down
flowers bloom during the season
dogs bark at the emptiness
it's quite funny they see ghosts!!!
.....while the scenesters make love
amorous currents flowing from the whisky bottles
tonight the kids are gifting us mayhem
yea the fashionable kids are nodding affirmatively to one 'nother
all this time i've been down?
they've been smirking scented in confidence
how i wish i was 19 again
how i wish away wantonly

4 am supernova

don't worry so much
just not a phone person
but i'll call you soon enough
will it make you happy?
yesterday was fun right?
the wine was good man
i think i'ma stick to wine for sometime
i wish you'd left yer drawers behind!!
haha then i'd have been sniffing it like a dog
poor me
---driving back today morn after dropping you?
.........felt like i was winning the race
i'm just fucking sleepwalking
can't wait for this to be over
in the end i'm just gonna use you
you are just another chorus from a pop song
i wish i weren't mean

suicide

tonight i go
electrolite on repeat on my stereo
light 'nother mean fag
bye bullies
bye sluts
hinterland here i come
easily man
ya'll so pretty
but as soon as i'm gone
ya'll be fighting again
find someone else to loathe
find someone else to rest 'em strains
i've gotten hollow
and i'm dizzy from the abuse
cuts aren't rewarding
drugs don't remedy
my song ain't melodious
guess my crutch-addled self can't fight anymore
i'm cutting the cord

tv cares 'bout me

gratification was easy when i was younger
a spoon of sugar
that was it
'nough to get the kicks in
5 rupees too
not anymore so i'ma break this hea
i was once charmed for a day and a half listening to elvis
wherever that line came from
....go and die
i felt alive for the first time when i saw an accident
the biker got smashed under a rotten jeep
his head was severed
my mom was trying to shield my eyes
but i was having none of it
......come on this was a movie right out my car window
told stories 'bout this for months
and then gratification came in the form of neat lil pill strips and stashes of powder
but fuck that
i mean i can't evoke happiness these days
there's no thrill
everyone's grown old
a tad bit bitter,,cynical or virtuous
i check my inbox and??
nobody fucking cares man
dropping a line is arduous i guess
reaching out makes me look lonely or radically disoriented i think
so what's the fix ezung?
well,,limber up and
bloody just break your shell

circa-then and now

when i finally show up
will you welcome me?
i hope you remember me fondly
cause i do i do
i'm still here listening to the same songs
i wear your clothes too,now and then
and i wish you were here to laugh at my jokes
if you come back you can be the elder one
cause i'm so sorry for not knowing
i'm tamer now
my ego has peaked
it's waning now
i tell you,you'd love it
i'm still not equipped
it's no fun learning without you
i downloaded a familiar song today
and this is how i'm placed here
.....solitary life to live
.......i know

heroin

i am charmed
so i am flightless
i will just stare
my headphones my gloves and my intentions
cigarette rested on my left ear
look at my eyes,,i'm dazed
this regulated sullenness
how can i not care 'bout my soul
sometimes i easily sway
at times i walk the line
most times i'm mending
....doing the double
ya know being curious and trynna be a good son
dawn to dusk
i got my A minor subtleties guiding me
i navigate
i can't remain unaffected
cause i'm unravelling myself every second
you're good to me
you give me heart
.....aerial prowess
and watching football is fun with you.
haha.

carpet decoral

looking out my window
can't see that chick today
i think she's off on a holiday
i'm wearing my brand new tee
smoke a cigarette
sip some coca-cola
by the way i'm outside my patio now
listening to idlewild
i'm not gonna see her today
but i'm not gonna revolt
i'll be sober and keep my eyes keen
i love fall weather
i think my personality's a fall moonlight
if i had you over
i'd offer you tea
unless of course you're into delayed shuttle flights
glide....slide.....we be gone gone gone for a long time
but no,,
before i lose my appeal
lemme make it clear
i'm no different
and i think i'm special

music kamikaze

i just yawned
i have watery eyes now
i've got long legs
i carry a timid heart
my eyesight's brilliant
you've left me here completely smitten
fuck my last drink
if i had my way i'd blast a grenade amidst this laughter
kill all my five friends
my top hats way too tiny
i wish i was a runt
i don't have appetite today
but water i'll surely and duly drink
i just got a long distance call
fucker made me hate myself even more
skiing on the alps huh?
i only have music
and i'm a music kamikaze
fly with deviant intentions all day
one day the load i carry
one day
.........i won't go alone

no not love,son

did you know kid?
he hung himself
not quite a celebrity death
somehow qualifies don't it?
i mean it sounds fun
here's the best part
he started taking heroin at 13
when i was in college i let him hang with me cause he had a bike
it was easy to get around while making a score
but man he was always fucking broke
he called me big bro
and he would sing the darkness song i believe in a thing called love
fucking mean rendition pillion riding on the way to the dealer
but i need to clarify hea
he was into hip-hop
why did he hang himself?
maybe his brain had taken enough hits
maybe he was just more miserable than anyone else
maybe he was in an underdosed state of mind
but from what i heard
.......it was unrequited love

rough hands

fall is here
fall i will
hide i will
sensitivity ya'll
drama from the garage
bottling up my courage
histrionics eating up my reserves
avid conspiracy theory fan
lie in bed all day
watch the world go by on my lap-top
let the world turn;;i have yet to make my turn
lag behind
just watch till ya'll all tiny dots
no no no
i won't cap my eyelids
stay alive for you to show up
rain on my macabre parade enemy
pleasure is what i seek
how sensual you won't fathom
even in this sleep like consciousness
.....i feel more
........i want more
i'm excited where there's corrupt order
i'm a speedster on the highway
crash into divine people again again
nothing to figure
back to dust that's all
back to grinds
so just grind away

1

boy has run out of crusades
so go sit with the men
labour for wages and in the evenings
paste the sky with moonshine wonder
spew at mother
belt the wifey
lecture the faces
and slowly incoherently blanket the senses with sleep
need to put some distance on conscience
life is freaking hard for a drop out
the steadiness the security.....
they come at you with sharpened knifes
nodding away at life's dilemmas isn't it
can't be a mute
i just can't tame my personality
so this is a shout out;;;;i resign

because i feel like a criminal

leaving my youth on the couch
fleeing from this red bull mess
what you got on yer stereo?
i got darlings-debut cd
feeling so nostalgic,,o it's so quaint
it's not lost i know
it's still early i know
and i'm handsome you know
this is a 24*7 build up
i mean this has been on my mind
and yet i don't have a clue
bang bang bang
my shirt's unbuttoned and you have me startled
shit,,life's rough and i've been so tame
i don't wanna be a rockstar anymore
....no more of that gear
my head night-skywards
inhale pre-winter oxygen
my eyes shut
black nothingness is peaceful
and maybe a tear trop from the skies and stars on my cheek
reminding me that you're still watching over me
bless me tonight
..........30

we get our emotions from water

morning has broken
2 dead cockroaches
5 dead mosquitoes
casualties from my last night's napalm design in the air
now i'm awake,,ok
do i have a wake for them?
is it the ways of the generality?
woken up confused for sure
a lil steady,,nigh sluggish i find myself
the lights are calling me out to play
i just wanna sit hea for the rest of the day
fuck smiles fuck talks and fuck riddles
so i'll dance and sing to my mirror
i need my juice to get going
alone i'll captivate the imigination of my tv,cupboard,iphone,laptop,shoes,tape and the water running to fill my bucket
listen to phoenix man
i was wondering why i didn't cry last night
i was supposed to be in mourning
i just lost a friend
so i checked myself
and then it percolated from my senses to my opinions
i'm desiccated
today my aim will be to drink water

reveries

stationary objects dwell me in
i point my finger
aim my eye-beams
permitted to mull right?
trapped in a daze like a foool!! willing to be a magnet
guess that's how i empty all my good juice
.....a pat on my back
......man!! has it been an hour already?
.......or we too early
grab back my dissipating wits
get movement back on track
sit quip sip
nod my head about with affirmation to yer queries
what a fine day i'm shuffling
flick my right eye 60 degrees
and there stretch all my tomorrows in perfect symmetrical circles
wish i knew what flicks 'em circles contain

my orbit

an old friend
a really old friend
he's got a face so crafted
yea i had a chat with him the other day
even my dementia addled self came about
synapses worked overtime and made me be
i guess it's good to reach out
take my hand and lead me to the junction
the place where they shelter oddities and rarities
these days i can't evoke bliss even with all 'em gears
doesn't last....
my volatile traits come about and squander my personality
i need direction baby
mentor my whimsical flights
poignant seconds like these are so fleeting
i wish i could cusp 'em and i could glow
i'm much too vague
i need order

A-L-O-N-E

remember how we had so much fun
remember how we aimed our guns
december i'll see you again
try decipher me again
you'll never get me
i'm stranded hea with yer folly
train and be a fine specimen
the future has been here 4 ever
and i'm still naive and dim with fire in my belly
change my clothes
smirk at yer token gestures
be friendly with the pharmacist
hey man that's all i am
and that's all i care to be
i've got aches that stretch back a decade
i've been picking myself up
and been dusting myself all too frequently
put you in place of.....
now i'm off on my trail

lick this

not particularly choosy
i don't sift all that much
but after all these time
i don't want you as a friend
i don't believe in you as a person
what have you done??
that's my parting lament
travel well
leave you to yours
and i'm off on mine
pilgrim on a sojourn
getting a philosophical fix
and i continue again.
what a state of mind
grandeur embellishments
this has got to be epic
.....here i am again
.....my manic ego
how can i be so faulty
my smatterings are deceiving
they weigh me down
i need to shake 'em off
so the trail bhoy
the trail only
it's fun
it'll be fun
it's got to be fun
now i am my own

ode

i'm happy to be your friend
you cheer me up
this is all i want
you've got me forever
i don't fear the weather
sun on my back or the clouds above me
i'm clean forever
look my nightmares in the eyes
and tell her i'm making my turn
set free of wanton agendas
free as a miracle
all i've squandered doesn't compare
i mean i've got a clear conscience
i've got good music
and we're still friends

i'll miss everyone

era after era
error after error
the junkie breathes on
smiles at another crack of dawn
limber up and shake this sullenness off
now gonna have to favour a trade
so ya'll all gonna get pretence
no amount of drugs gonna fade my cynical vigour
i believe so i'll deceive
this isn't an infatuation
the world owes me one
i've taken my lessons
today i graduate and be counted
this is me stripped off fear
this is me plying my antics
i'll walk my line
dotted or connected or concocted
i'm here.

comeback

i love life
i live poor
looks like i'm making it
i like the 60's
i like the 90's
i even like it right now
i restored myself last night
i shake off the bollocks like autumn leaves
the stories you heard are just urban legends
look me in the eye and tell me this isn't a flourish
and you'll be able to hear my tunes long as mam's 'round
hail her man
you know man!!!!
......the sun on your bare shoulders come for free
...........but you still need to steer to feel magical
i am my own
fantastically possessed by a mythical overseer
i've even given up toying with the guitar
i am ready.

11:47 p:m 17th january 2005

speak of me
all about me
sing to me
a song about me
a place in heaven
a place in hell
place me anywhere
over the air
i'm over there
and i'm near
i'm everywhere
a place in heaven
a place in hell
place me anywhere
i must just
...love myself
a narcissist
a selfish man
there was yesterday to thank god for,
now there's today for whatever my plans
a place in heaven
a place in hell
place me anywhere



baby.

11:17 p:m 12th january 2005

feeling blue on......
yesterday's feeling
left it with a bothersome
pleasure,
feeling used on
yesterday's feeling,
would have had a better
time to talk,
drugged with foreign
chemical alien,
sleeping for tomorrow
to show,
all's left, and i'm dizzy
pissed dazed
all's left, im fleeing the
DAY
all' left, i'm feeing the
DAY
pass the time with a
friend of mine,
take her time and make it mine
she's gold and silver
whatever it means
i'm going someplace
out of this race

""MET""

01:01 p:m 23rd february 2004

my best,on your words
when you sit and talk
designing your breath

i ask you for a thing
you give me pleasant
wings
generating generosity

sharing air we don't
know
feeling different
altogether
loving each other

these are lies of a liar
who's got no desires
just playing the vain


- METAO EZUNG-

shit AM;;;21st thru 22nd oct 2004

do without your trend
and bring out the rain
or bring in the sunshine
need for a white house
house for a pass out
so long for a doubt
i'm just moving with the psychedelia memory
you were here solving pieces of my story
missing out and living different lives
on or own to stay alive
felt and named a name
with a dry tongue riddle
for while i'm here awhile
life,life the nocturne strip search for the tune
experience your time.
METAO EZUNG (1983-2005)

tongue-in-cheek

you're my enemy gravity
i don't wanna come down
i only wanna ascend
there ain't any mercy floating 'bout in the skies so i can't cushion my thud
can you see me???
my finest sleekest suit??
i'm just defected any which way
diving down to earth
my ensemble;;;;;;;step-son to friction
break bones this comedown
this episode gonna leave me devoid of thought
ain't gonna be any jottings henceforth
and what music do i got in my earpiece as i break speed
....tracy bonham's ----- angel,won't you come down?
hilariously tragically ironic

friday night burn summed up on a loathsome sunday

all of my 5 senses
all of my 5 restraints
exchanged pleasantries with a flower
squandered my charms and wishes
now hea in my room feeling so stupid
dried up and fragile
.......i could die if i make one physical endeavor
just lie in my bed and listen to music man!!!!
the dealer is the enemy
and now that i've identified the menace
my heart beat is getting more industrious
i'm even gonna clip my nails later
......yea later everything every time
habits make a man but i swear my habits are just miscellaneous
poor boys are warm to rich boys
rich boys emanate warmth in a certain trajectory
the hell with my lines
time to post it up.......hahahaha

a page from my stealth notebook

best friend died of a drug overdose
and i can't mourn cause i'm so underdosed
his angelic soul floating above me sympathises my plight
but cheers bud .......you're off the hook now
i might lament hea forever but yer sojourn ......you've done expressing
expressive as i might wanna inculcate into my show
no one cares
never thought i'd live past 25.....and then i fancied the great gig in the sky
but well man
......no guts no drive......not clinically evolved
i'm grounded hea plying my endearing skits
make ya'll laugh........yea right
i'm a sorry lament
grunt my refrains......and man they're getting louder everytime
the only thing working for me is running
plant rubber kisses on the treadmill all day
one day i'll turn around with my decayed mind
..............if only i could rule the world

loners inquest

pick her up
she's my kind
young and naive
i can impart vicious notions
very easy to access 'em with my potions
i'm just a manchild
i got no restraint
i got no therapeutic decisiveness
oh i'm just so lost man
life is so tiresome
fucking struggle
it's hard to stand erect
it's all in the mind the naysayers say
calmly i go about my dose
i'm just so contend being alone
i play no part in the social niceties
i dive dive sin and sin
.......well that's what they say
me against all you moral adherents
fun right?????
ya'll can take me out with a mongolian chop
i'd lay moaning
and if i move on
......nobody will miss me.

7 long days with no clue......wit got molested

friends aren't friends.....and i'm no friend either......very preoccupied with my sojourn.....i'll
never fathom so i don't want it either.......social star.....class hierarchy.....and i'm never even gonna graduate from the school of hard knocks....fuck that imaginary crown......i hate so many people.......there just ain't enough simple digital mother fuckers around these days.......for me it's just music and keeping healthy......but it's gonna take me sometime to get back to top form cause i fooking relapsed sometime back for bout 7 or 8 kicks.....boo hoo.......and hip hip hip hip hurrah..........every other people is lame.......i'm only just contradictory.........pure as pure can be,,,,i am............kidding aside....my issues are minor....fuck wokha!!!!

forlornly handsome

i like sin
i'm into reveries
wake me up with a pin prick
a burst of maroon......i'll lick it
i hate science
i loathe philosophy
i revere being debauched
please see thru me
assimilate into my being
it's just so meaningless
i'm so big
........but the universe ain't got a big enough word for description
i'll die young in jest
it'll be plain and the mild catharsis will be my finger salute

mediocre scientist conforms

mom dad i'mma die tonight........i haven't spiralled out of control......but a chunk of my psyche is going ashtray tonight,,,,,,,them cheap adulterated brown grinds that come in lovely sachets.......tsk they're getting to me.......i guess i'mma be all squandered and debilitated even before the curtain calls.....i make a vow to thyself everynight before i cap my eye lids......that one day i'll pen an ode....a novel maybe.....something classic........that'll maybe make the classroom punks squirm no end.......i wanna belong to a bracket....deep inside i only long for acceptance......whew i write and write and write but in the end i only contradict myself.......fuck my stopwatch is giving me the times up beep........one lil caper before bedtime......sour cherry pickings!

Sound Check No. 97

i'll say man....i listen to the best music.......it's all i got......i won't retreat from hea......i'm anchored and stationed......always polite and subtle......it's just my guile.....my guise been killing ya'll for deacdes.....visionary fumes fools.....brown girl in the ring.......i'm waiting on my dealer as i imprint some intellect......yeh arrogant as fuck as fack can be......leave me be......treat this as some white noise.......go compose yourself at home......you'll need a whole lotta restoring after you go thru my vice sprinkled lines......humility does get stale this way too.....love only

we haven't turned around

took the privilege once again.......knocking red.......red is fine.......didn't run today......i amuse myself everytime i get high so this episode gets the posterity treatment in the form of words.......i'm listening to supergrass i should coco.......it's fun man......i really think....actually i think i know for sure that we've had the best music to date from the 90's.......the 90's gave me shoulder blades dammit.....!!!!!......................today i'm a son of a gun.......i'm retarted a wee bit too......if you chance to look at me i'd horrify you.....totally grossing out in my room.........the mirror will live to tell tales that'll leave ghosts petrified......they'll flee shedding their cloaks as souvenirs.......hahaha.......one more swig....amen.

save me

some songs make you cry.........they do man......they make me so fragile a hair could whip me agony......right now im listening to tracy bonham's latest album........just going thru my first listen so i can't judge pirates.......burdens of being upright is still one of my fav bonham's album.........anyways the song that has got me whipped......man i listened to it for the longest time......was on loop for a whole fucking year i swear.......i was big time into heroin.........earplugged on my way in the taxi while making a score......there were 2 songs actually.....are you sad by OLP being the other one;;;;;;;;;;;;;might ya'll be asking what i'm on about.......i'd to jot this out cause that song came on randomly on my itunes.......and it made me grieve!! CHEERS TO TIMES THAT GOT ME HEA...........b-r-e-a-t-h-e.

one day i'll quit ciggies for sure

so 5 days after being a zealot in the revolution........i've stepped aside......can't fuck about like it's a lifelong calling.......exercise and shite munn!!!!.........haha a lil off key with my zeal hea.....i'm swigging a bot of fine red wine listening to fun loving criminals........just feels so right i dunno........i don't love any girl right now.....i don't fancy any slag either........whole of today??? me and my dad man........we was taking mechanical care of my car........and might i say it was surreal........hahahaha......one more SWIG........yippie.......ok i'm gonna cut it short......bye

was earnest 15 mins back

i need drugs right now.........bent my mind on it this whole afternoon........well the sachet of brown that eventually arrived didn't gimme a twitch......what subtle gear they peddle these days........infamy man.......so later after dinner just as i was sneaking my car out to make a grander score......dad caught wind of my shenanigan......and so the fuck me retreated back to my camp .....and am groggy arse sat on my over-crafted dementia ridden plastic chair........how long are they gonna suppress my revolution???.......i guess i'll just litter my muck churned spew into this lovely symmetrical architectural alphabetical thing called VOCAB spawn.

nearly copacetic

if i loved someone i'd cease to exist......my poetry will decompose into stale soup......i'd be clinically devoid cause my glorious soul can't splice,,,,i can't mutate......natural selection won't allow......i'm fucking PLURAL......as chaotic as my minimalistic drive.......loner that i am.......you know i've figured my part in this big evolutionary puzzle.........this is incomplete.......part 2 coming up!!!

THIRTY ?????? 30

today i ate more than 5 times the amount i usually shove.........man,,,,oh fucking phew........my belly just got it's own killer gravititional charisma.......guess it's GOD'S shining gift of a new addition to my repartee of deft maneuverability...... hahaha i may just premier my skill with a grand theft......hahaha............right now????......stiffling the keyboard,,rather stabbing 'em with my finely sharpened manicured finger-nails...... bodes well for me......hey..........know?????------i'm a cacooned gal,,ladies and gentlemen......i love my bubble....... i love my bubble....... AND SOMEONE NEEDS TO BURST MY SEE-THRU COMFORT AND LEMME FEEL SUFFERING.............i'll say AMEN when i'm defeated

he's tall

i was watching a movie but then the lights went poof.......sorry lament at 45 past 12.......listening to the ataris,,my screen light illuminating me random drills......hahaha......this band brings back good token memories.........the thing is fuck i'm nearly 30 ........the real thing being my feelings are so effortless........i mean i go back more than a decade now when i resurrect memories........it's no strain at all how i've got hea,,,time flies man........this wee morning i love you

run whole fucking life

saying it's so boring is so cliched........i went out and got my car checked.......some maintenance expenditure coming up people......hahahaha.....i wanna blog my gigantic hollow brains out this early morn......like all that's keeping me awake,,noises from my supposed overworked chime chestnut;my fooking brain.......hahaha.....fuck.....i breathe in.....place my feet together......stand erect......look skyward,,hands behind my back.....i realise that i've not had fun since i stepped out of the revolution......i mean the sause is fun........but i'm a dreamer,,so.........i need to quit this right now........i'm derailed.

geometry

right after this i'mma strum my guitar......i've been meaning to practice more often but it never happens.......too lazy......and i guess that's why i'll remain a mediocre player.......haha pun intended in every kinna angle........

snooze up

downloaded the whole pavement discography........it's an achievement haha......sat hea in my spread.......it's 16:14 exactly......can't wait for the everton vs manU match........rooney gonna get laid again........i'm still figuring out what kinna direction do i give my writings hea......in a while

a start

wow i gotta admit.......what was it??