guerilla fire for a rebel proof soul

i got stupid
i lost you to a brave line
i lost you to a rapture
in my euphoria.......
voices from every direction
they inhibit my narcissism
and as i can't be stood and frowning down?
even my trails are vague
i suppose i can't be haunting
i'm diminishing every breath
lost and confused unrequited
dream dreams so distant
utopian reality i inhabit
lacklustre me
i'd like to cease
V

agenda

i kissed her
and she tasted full of adrenaline
she tasted like a young buzz
and she tells me oh so stylishly
"i ain't horny"
so i'm naive
got no game
just let her own me
arbitrarily construct me
have i got wisdom tonight!
maybe i've got sissy convictions
but i'm getting laid tonight
and that's my call

lack of cohesion

PART-1
slow luna
i wish i agreed what's being said
a loner
a stoner
a poet
an atheist
all these words make a mockery of me
i've grown up and i'm such a rascal
so balanced and nimble on the fence
smirk all day
so optimistic,,yea i'm a faltering personality
so i talked to my cat today
fed her fish
she ate it with so much noise
that's the life for her
but i?
i want better
i want a tv life
PART-2
moving in a car
breathing in ac
keeping my soul in slow motion
thinking about the past
i had everything
living on a regret diet
just passed a brick kiln
oh how cities come up
and how the mighty fall
buzz about
whisky squandered
make up lies
make a new friend
eat some soup
sit on a fence
the velvet underground

drama of it all

silence for?
my cat
eager for?
your love
static for?
divinity
focus for?
what ever the showers bring or anything that i can pluck'r out the wind
all of my teachers
all of the books
all of the experience
each and every catharsis
it's like i arrived from the start.
my tv's broke but i'm not fixing it
listen to music all day
i'm done trying to level the chasms
just don't ask me if i am content

ATTENTION!!!!!!!!

when i retrograded i felt sad............
in school ma'am would always grade me with her eyes
and now i do the same with all in my view
i'm not accepting anymore
i'm just cynical all the time
even with my food or the good on my arm!
this shape that shape all forms
lest i betray my contradictory self
i'm not budging from this frame of mind
feel so fiery and all-consuming
but then again i'm so meek when i'm star gazing
i can lose myself in a flicker
that's why i won't drag those fumes anymore
i'm way too young to have my nostrils cotton-balled
and i'm also way past the great gig in the sky to have my arms axed
so tenderly,, i'm falling back in line yet again

no time limit

my hours tick by so slow
don't matter i listen to a fast song new rose
i want my demons to flee away right now
i play a bad paced game
and i lose my affinity all the time
i can't even express love
i've got the most rotten personality
i wanna feel fresh again
and i'll never wander away given it
when i was a kid
when i flew kites
i sent up letters
the kites they never replied
now i know why